Of Asim Butt, Epiphanies, and being alone in this big wide world!

This would not have happened if this city wasn’t suffocating him!

This is what Arif Sahab said when the news of Asim Butt’s death reached him. It was still early morning, hardly 12 yet, and the news was received with shock!

Asim.....

It has been a while now, since Asim left his friends! I wasn’t one of them, but I had met him. Polite exchange of pleasantries had taken place between us whenever we met!

This is why it feels awkward for me to even try to say that last night somehow I understood what he did and why he did it! I understood somehow why he would have decided to take things in his own hands!

I wish I could say that the realization came to me in an epiphany, but it was instead a result of my own depressive phase that seems to have taken hold of me recently! Continue reading

The ending of yet another year!

The year is almost over! It’s done with.. and as a human this is as true a confession can get about how I have spent this year!

As a mere human, I have spent this year dwelling in whats to come, and whats been left behind forever and ever to which there is no turning back.

I have made mistakes and failed, I have taken risks and succedded, I have rejoiced in my friends happiness, and have been hurt by what I saw around me.

I have found new friendships, while found an even greater support system within the old friendships that I have carried on with me for years.

I found that the perspectives that I have had about people are not always true and every now and then they require to be revisited, evaluated, and changed for the better or for the worst.

I have broken promises and gotten mad at other for breaking theirs! Continue reading